I resonate with your struggle here. Sometimes it is so natural to try to do everything on my own! But God is in control and he has promised to provide for his people. So, while I think responsibility is a good thing, I think we can rely on God while trying to be responsible, knowing that he will see us through whatever circumstances he brings our way and whatever he asks us to do. He will get us to where ever he wants us to be. However, I can relate with the fact that this can be hard to remember and trust in at times.